Moments of last night..

I knew that someday I would find out… But I never thought it would be this bad… I trusted you.. with everything, and that’s honestly what hurts me the most. Because I look back at all of the times I’ve asked you about specific girls, and you would just stand there, lying to me.. holding me hand.. just looking straight into my eyes.. And that’s what really broke my heart.. And it also hurts me how I would be texting you, or talking to you on the phone that very same day/ night. I honestly knoweverythingnow.. Yes, I have messed up before while I was with you. But I’ve learned my lesson.. But you? It seriously feels like my heart just got ripped straight out my chest.. I mean, did you go and see her? did you sneak her out? did you go and do things that are not just okay? … I still love you, and I am still currently with you… But I am justconstantlythinking about it. And I meanconstantly…And to top it all of, it was with that trifling bitch. Like.. really?.. really? Out of all people, my worst enemy, the one person I have the most anger for.. Like why’d you lie straight to my face? Am I doing something wrong? Am I doing something not right for you to be doing this?  Calling her things that you should be callingme.I just have so much anger built up inside.. That’s all. Where’s the punching bag? Or better yet, where is her ass.. That would just be so much fun. But anywho, I am just slowly repairing myself… step by step. All I wanna do is forget this. I wish I could just sleep it off, and forget this ever happened. I still love you, you’re my everything. I’m not going to let you go. Just know what you did really hurt me, and just make sure itneverhappens again.. Please.

xoxo.